I have a kidney infection. This is really fucking gay. Ouuuucccchhh!

Just an update.
I have a boyfriend. His name is Josh. Musician, really into mics and recording.
I think he's pretty sweet. :)
That's all.
Time to clean the freakin house.

Just a little update.
Good things are coming. Good times. Camp. Reno. Yann Tiersen. The Decemberists. Bat's day. Coachella(hopefully). Not going to family on Easter.

:)

Mmm. Never home anymore. Things are goin pretty god for me. Moving back in with the boys. I'm freakin here all the time anyhow. Pete is giving me his room and he's takin the garage. I don't have to ever talk to Yvette again. I never have to act like a friend to Blake. He's just my instructor again. Even though punching him in the dick sounds so pleasing right now. Anyhow! I don't give a fuck about him. So. Yeah. Moving back in. I'm happy here. I miss them. They actually like me here. They know me. Blah blah blah. I gotta get my ass packin soon! Exciting!!! Even though this house is freezing. Shit. Always cold in here.

.... He's in a relationship?! WHAT THE FUCK! Piece of shit mother fucker. I've been fucked over so much......... Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.............

I've been used... I'm done...

SO! It's me birthday right. Otay.
I got my piano. I can't stop playing it. It's amazzzzzzzzzzzing. Fuck I missed playing so much. I really hope this works. I want to get really good. I need a better chair.. Or a bench would be nice as well. But oh well.
just a side note. Fuck the superbowl. No one wants to hang out. I dunno. This is gay. I'm so bored. It doesn't even feel like my birthday.

Fuckin A... I think Jared#2 is suspecting that I'm not gonna go through with it... I'm a terrible person... Shit. I shouldn't have started something I couldn't finish. I'm so torn...
I hate me...

I really wish this decision wasn't so damn hard... LAME!

I could play piano all the time. I never want to go a day without playing. I want to get better than I could ever be. I want to push harder and learn more. I just wish I had a keyboard to play on at home.
I hadn't realized that 3 hours had gone by of me playing. It only felt like 20 minutes... God!!! I miss playing!!

You know what?
Fuck my life.

On sooooo many drugs.


Sad Fat Face

So I got this new amazzzzzzing laptop for x-mas. Dell Studio. I'm in love. It's so nice to have a fast working computer. 300g with 3g of ram. Beautiful. :D

It's all I wanted fro x-mas. It's all I needed. It's got a neato webcam. Super fun.

Just a little update on life. Heard today that my cal grant is gone. I guess that's what I get. Oh well. I still got the pell. I hope. Really hope.

I love percocet. I love not having a headache.
I love having my wisdom teeth out. I want it to be healed. Would be nice. Slurring all my words, too. Haha.
Hmmmmmmmmmm nap time soon. People should stop by so I can stop dying.

It's legal!!!!
I CAN DRIVE!
Go me. Easiest test ever.
I rule.

I'm getting real nervous that it's not going to happen. I think I put too much thought into it. I guess I was just happy to see that someone was talking to me for once.
Well damnit...

I LOVE MY MANDARINS FAMILY

I really hope I didn't fuck this one up.

So. Life is decent. I got a lot on my mind. Ya know. I might be moving out of my house. It's a real hard decision, but there are more positives than negatives. There's an extra room with Yvette. I'm really thinking about taking it. It's getting a little too cold to be sleeping in my room because there's seriously like no walls. I kinda knew this was going to happen. I've been sleeping on the couch a lot. I really miss a bed. I would be sleeping in a bed inside a room in a house. There will be 5 people. Crazy. I just may have to take it, though. I really do love living with the boys. If I move into Yeti's house I'd be living with 3 other girls and one guy. Who I'm extremely interested in. He's interested in me as well. That's not a deciding factor for me, though. If I leave this place I might ruin it for the boys as well. Either they would have to pay more or Dave couldn't let them stay. So there's some guilt on my shoulders. But a room!!! I need a room. I need to sleep in a real bed. Have a desk for -my- computer. There's too many positives. I really hate this.